Goodbye Cleo

Today we had to say goodbye to Cleo. This weekend she was not herself, she was lethargic. We thought that she’d pick back up like she always has but this morning, not long after I got to work, Vick called me to say she was really struggling. She was coughing hard and couldn’t rest or lay down. You could hear her wheezing and she wouldn’t walk. We thought then it was time so we called the vet. Our hearts sank and even though we knew this day would come we always held out hope – never wanting to believe it would come. She’s not suffering anymore and can get some rest. She fought hard and always comforted us. I spent many a night just sitting with her on the sofa. She’d always nudge my hand when I stopped stroking her and give me the eye like “Why’d you stop?!?” She …

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Struggling

It’s been a long tough week emotionally. It has been a real struggle and my energy levels have been really low. I’m trying to pick my head up though and to all that have asked how I am and supported me this week (you know who you are) I appreciate it 🙂 However, Cleo had a bad night last night and is clearly feeling it today. Hopefully some rest will make her feel better in herself. She is currently on steroids which appear to be helping her at least be comfortable.  Each day she is here is a another day we are grateful. In other news, I’ve got a few projects and jobs to work on this afternoon and just thinking about it gives me some motivation.  It is time to change my ideas into reality. You never know unless you try right? Also, going to Pen y fan last …

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The fight is over

Another Thursday, another trip to the vets. Except that today it turned out to be the last one for the treatment. After examining Cleo, the vet confirmed Cleo has not gone back into remission and she is not going to do so. After a long and heartbreaking discussion, we decided to stop putting her through treatments that wasn’t going to change anything. The vet has been amazing. Everyone there has been. We couldn’t have asked for better care. We did all we could, explored every option, gave Cleo every chance but in the end the cancer has won. Before we left the vet asked if the nurses could see Cleo one last time. Cleo has that effect on people, everyone loves her and I am pretty sure she knows it too. Now all we can do is monitor her from day-to-day and when it looks like it is getting to …

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