Yet another line in the sand

It is time to talk about mental health again. In my case the lack of it. I have been managing from day-to-day but lately my mind has begun to wander. It is taking more and more effort to keep my brain from wandering when I am ‘idle’ outside of work for instance. The problem is that when I get home my mental energy has all but gone. This leaves things I enjoy doing such as maintaining this website, working on my other pet projects and even gaming taking a sideline. I end up just sort of drifting from one night to the next. I know I need to snap out of it so I am going to draw (yet another) line in the sand today and make a more concerted effort to pull myself up. One step at a time.

The fight is over

Another Thursday, another trip to the vets. Except that today it turned out to be the last one for the treatment. After examining Cleo, the vet confirmed Cleo has not gone back into remission and she is not going to do so. After a long and heartbreaking discussion, we decided to stop putting her through treatments that wasn’t going to change anything. The vet has been amazing. Everyone there has been. We couldn’t have asked for better care. We did all we could, explored every option, gave Cleo every chance but in the end the cancer has won. Before we left the vet asked if the nurses could see Cleo one last time. Cleo has that effect on people, everyone loves her and I am pretty sure she knows it too. Now all we can do is monitor her from day-to-day and when it looks like it is getting to …

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Rescue protocol

I am not sure how to start this post so I’ll just jump right into it. When we arrived at the vets she explained that she would run a load of tests on Cleo. We told her about the coughing and the lumps becoming more prominent. She said there are probably some lymph nodes we cannot see pressing on her throat causing her to cough thinking there is something there to clear. We talked about the rescue protocol they are going to try to then Cleo happily went off with her. After what seemed like forever, expecting the phone to ring to say “Sorry we cannot try the alternative drugs”, we came back to pick her up at 12. Myra said Cleo’s blood count was good enough for her to have the drugs and that she took the injections and infusions like a pro. Didn’t even flinch. She said that …

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