Weird feeling

I feel kind of weird.  I could leave that sentence there as I have been staring at the flashing cursor urging me to type something for about half an hour now, and that sentence sums up my current feeling.  I’m guessing that would be a pretty dull read  — the entire second of it.  I’ll try to express what I mean.  I’ll probably end up chopping and moving stuff around a lot, so some of that might show.  Maybe I’ll leave it as it is to illustrate better how much my mind jumps around from concept to concept, thought to thought without any discernible pattern?  We’ll see.  I already know the answer to that, though if I’m honest with myself.  I will re-read this about ten times (at least) before I hit the publish button.  I still get a very uneasy feeling before I post something and I don’t suppose …

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More progress and pain

Making it to this weekend has been more comfortable for me than it has been for a long time, and that has to be a plus.  I went to a second counselling session on Thursday, and although I talked a lot, it did seem to go over the same ground.  I know it is only early days, but I don’t know if it is helping.  I guess it helps me get things off my chest, which is always good.  I let myself vent a little recently, and it levelled me out pretty good, so maybe I’m just undervaluing it.  I’d love to hear from anyone who has gone through counselling with any stories, experiences or insights they’d like to share.  I’m new to this and don’t know what to expect.  I guess everyone’s take away from it is different though. We walked Tyrion quite a bit longer this week than …

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