The decline

I’ve been staring at this blank text box for about half an hour now. I have so much to say but I am not sure how to write it.  There may be some jumping around as things come back to me at random.  At least at the moment.  I’ll try my best to edit it into a reasonable reading state though! It has been a long time since I posted.  The usual reasons still apply but this time it has been a lot darker than ever before.  I warn you now.  There are a few triggering subjects within and some things that might shock my friends, family and some people reading this.  I feel I have to do this as a start to my recovery and today being a rare day (so far) for me to have the energy and mindset to do so, I thought I’d best get it …

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Weekend adventures

Last Friday my brother Andrew, Sheryl (his wife), Vicky and I travelled to London and Watford.  The primary reason for the visit was a double birthday celebration for Vick and Sheryl which of course involved going to Harry Potter.  This was Vick’s 10th time and Sheryl’s first time.  We spent some time going around London visiting the Giant Harry Potter wands at St Paul’s Cathedral and the London Eye.  We tried to go to Ed’s diner one night but it was closed early so we ended up in Nandos which, as it turns out, was a big mistake.  The service was ridiculously slow and that was just to order.  The guy serving didn’t quite seem to know what he was doing and looked to be getting no support for the others there.  When we went back up to order dessert the wait to order was equally long and then almost …

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Nothing ventured, nothing gained

On Sunday I decided to change the time I take my medication to an hour or so before bed.  The hope is that it will help me to sleep and stave off the drained feeling I have for the first part of everyday.  It has only been one day but this morning I did feel fresher.  This is by no means conclusive proof by any stretch of the imagination but maybe, just maybe, I’m on to something.  Then again it could be that I am only in work for two days this week so my mood is generally lifted?  A break is on the cards for sure.  It always sounds like I am saying that.  Hopefully this break will sort me out and I can put everything out of my mind that needs to get out. I still haven’t started on the redecorating of upstairs properly either.  I’ll push through …

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