Not a great day

The darkness is starting to settle on me again.  As usual, I do not know what is causing it.  My whole body is aching; I feel dizzy and disorientated, which is not helping my mood at all.  I can feel my mood slipping and my patience wearing thin to the point of disappearing almost immediately.  This is resulting in my snapping at random and having outbursts towards people who do not deserve it.  That is not to say all my outbursts directed at people are not warranted though.  For example, Vick and I went shopping earlier, and I counted five cars parked in the disabled bays not displaying a badge.  A couple of people were getting out of a car and walking into the shop, and I couldn’t resist.  I said “Do you realise you’ve made my wife walk further now because you are taking up a disabled space? Are …

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Painful but productive

I’m sitting here on a rainy Sunday morning aching pretty much everywhere, but somehow I am feeling good.  I spent most of yesterday moving my pc, consoles and rebuilding a server.  To many, that sounds boring.  To me though it was a necessary step to getting myself to a place I want to be.  It might seem weird, but getting my workspace organised helps motivate to start creating things again.  I have had a lot of ideas for apps and even games for what seems like forever, but they’ve never got out of my head.  Now I have everything set up the way I like I want to start them.  So much so that I got up relatively early on a Sunday!  Which, as anyone who knows me, is not my custom at all.  The only hindrance for me at the moment is two fingers on my right hand throbbing …

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