Out of the gloom

Things were going well for a while since my last post.  Despite that, I should have been posting in the good times, not just the bad.  I do not know why I didn’t. However, that time of things going well was short-lived.  My mood started shifting downwards again and everyday things I had coped with became huge, impassible mountains in my mind.  I began to withdraw. I was hiding in the toilets whenever things got on top of me just crying or trying desperately to snap out of it.  A lot of the time I think it worked.  At least it didn’t appear as anyone noticed much.  Some mentions were made, but I was always quick to deny it. However, I knew deep down in my mind that I could never sustain it.  Looking back on that now I know it was a mistake. The day finally came when, after coming …

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Post birthday reflections

It has been a while since I posted so, seeing as it was my birthday yesterday, I thought I’d make a post today with some reflections.  I’ll try not to make it sound too much like a midlife crisis type post! Firstly, I’d like to thank everyone who wished me a happy birthday yesterday and for the gifts and cards.  I had an awesome day.  Vick and I went to Cardiff and tucked into some food at Ed’s diner.  Even though I didn’t have a voucher proving it was my birthday for some discounts the guy there gave us £15 off the bill which was very kind of him.  Vick bought me some Ghostbusters Pop figures to mostly complete the awesome set.  I’ll be posting some pics later on. I don’t usually look at my birthday as a moment to make a fresh start, but I think it is time.  …

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