Mental seesaw

I think I’ve reached a balance point mentally.  Maybe that is wrong?  Perhaps a better way of explaining my current mental state is, although it tips wildly in either direction from anger/sadness to happiness/contentment, is that it returns to the centre quickly.   That is good news.  However, I am finding that my mind wanders quite a lot when I find myself with a little time to myself.  I can’t seem to focus on much or stick with things easily during my free time.  I’m sure everyone has those moments of clarity when they are standing in the shower whereby you have a million and one thoughts flying around in your head, and you know what you want to do with yourself.  When I get out though and cool down from the shower, my motivation and concentration dip to pretty much zero.  I read somewhere that your mind flows more freely …

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The struggle continues

It has been another tough week. I am trying my hardest to hold myself together while my mind is trying its hardest to pull me apart. I usually make it to Friday with a small sense of achievement at least but not this week.  I feel drained.  Physically and mentally. On top of that, something weird is going on with my eye.  Came out of nowhere and has gotten steadily worse over the last few days.  So an early night was in order holding onto the vague hope I’d feel better in the morning.  I don’t feel much better, though, but at least I am up early!  It doesn’t look as bad as yesterday, but maybe I am just used to it now.  It does hurt to the touch though.  On the plus side, my shoulder is a lot better, so there is that! We’re supposed to be going to the Big Cheese today, …

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