Unexpected but welcome

Today was a good day for me. There I said it.  The first actual full good day I have had for as long as I can remember.  Of course I am talking mentally here.  Other things are bothering me but these are run-of-the-mill daily life things. Such as my car deciding to quit on me 3 days before it going to the garage etc. I admit it should have been looked at sooner but due to various things happening to me during that period I didn’t.  I won’t go over it but if you’d like some background please go here and come back. You’d think I’d more to write more but my mind is just empty of other thoughts right now. Oh yeah.  I played some Tetris 99 thinking “I remember being awesome at Tetris when I was younger!”  It turns out that was either in my head (likely) or the fact …

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Getting stronger

It has been a few weeks since I have been back to work and although I wouldn’t say it has been easy, I am finding it easier than before.  Maybe I am starting to get in the right place?  When things come my way that upset me I have been able to take a step back and regroup a lot easier than before.  I don’t know if I will ever get to a place where trivial things don’t set my mind off on a path that most people’s don’t go though.  It is just that I am able, at the moment, to realise it is not as bleak as my mind wants me to believe. Last week my car decided to pack up which threw a large spanner in the works.  The first opinion was that it would cost more than it was worth to repair.  However, the explanation felt …

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