Calm before the storm?

I feel strangely odd today.  I feel calm, but I can also feel frustration bubbling under the surface.  The bubbling seems to be getting louder.  If it keeps up at this pace, it will be at a boiling point pretty soon.  I do feel like I am making progress with expressing my frustrations though which may not be going down well with some.  However, all of the things I have let out recently have been simmering for quite some time.  It’s odd that with this venting of my frustrations the bubbling is not subsiding.  Maybe I underestimated just how much I needed to vent?  I do not want to let it all out and once but perhaps I should open the valve a bit more?  It certainly feels liberating to let so many things out finally. Why is it despite getting a few things in order and generally feeling like …

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Minor victory

I think I had a small victory today.  A tiny victory in the eyes of most people I bet, but for me it was great.  I addressed a situation head-on.  Instead of just accepting the blame for a change or minimising my frustration at a situation, I addressed it, and you know what?  It didn’t turn out as bad as I thought.  Even though it took me a lot longer than I would like to work up the nerve to do it, I did it.  Looking back on it now, it was such a small thing, but my mind (playing through every bad scenario it could) made me get more than a little stressed. So yeah, minor victory and some of you may well be thinking “yup, what was the big deal?”  If you believe that then I am happy for you.  You are in a place I eventually want …

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