I think I am starting to feel a dip in my mood. Over the last few days I’m having to try harder to motivate myself to get up and move. Not sure what is triggering it this time. Maybe I am just getting fatigued more easily these days? I am trying my best not to let it get to me though but it is hard. I feel like I am running at about 30% all the time. Always looking to get to the next mile post or the next charging point so to speak. Not enjoying the journey just enduring it. That is not how I want to be and for the most part, since I’ve been back, that is not how I have been. I really hope I’m not slipping again.
Recently I began to set up a streaming platform upstairs. However, my internet upload is currently letting me down somewhat. Dipping below even 1 mbps upload is not conducive to decent stream quality. Vodafone says they are on the case as I am meant to be getting 10 mbps up and 35 mbps down. At least I get a discount until it is sorted right? The power line adapters could be slowing things a little. It is possible there is some interference on the wiring in the house. Suppose I’ll just have to tweak that too to see what is best. I don’t expect my streams to draw in anyone at all. It is more of something I’ve been wanting to try for a while and if I’m gonna do it I want to do it right.
Work is going ok. There are some things bugging me but they are run-of-the-mill issues that I just have to learn to live with. Things that, I guess, are in every office environment. I am probably been too sensitive to things as I often am. The nature of depression and anxiety I guess. Sensitivity is always dialled up to 11.
It’s only a couple of weeks until I have my car back complete with an almost new engine. It has been a hard slog. Not to mention an expensive one. I hope the car behaves for another year or so at least after this.
Finally, yesterday and today my left shoulder and back have started to ache quite a bit. Trying to stretch it out but maybe that is not such a good idea. Anyway, onwards and upwards. The weekend is in sight.