End of a week, start of a project

Well it is the end of the working week with a bank holiday on the horizon. I am not going to deny it has been another hard week for me. My family has also suffered this week but it is not my place to post about that here. I am tired all the time but I know that is just the side effects of the “black dog” raising its head. Getting more and more sleep never helps. Sure it feels good at the time but as soon as I wake up my brain goes back into overdrive. However, I have decided to throw my hat back into the ring of Android app development which I have been thinking about for a while. I am quite looking forward to making a start. I am still working on ideas for the app and will reveal all after the weekend when I’ve gotten …

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Long night

The last few days have been a roller-coaster.  Last night though the dark clouds were forming worse then they have for a long time and as usual my sleep suffered. It is funny this morning though, looking back on it, as what I was worrying about is really just small things.  Some of which I cannot even remember properly although at the time it was the end of the world inside my head.  Still the dark thoughts kept coming. I’ve decided I need to get myself into more personal projects.  I’m dwelling on things too much when at home and I think if I kept myself busy and engaged as well as stepping up the exercise it should help. The problem is though, the more I feel like this the less likely I am to do these things which in turn would help me to get out of it.   …

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Holiday over

I am at the end of a 10 day break from work and as usual I do not know how it went by so fast!  I went out last night to my cousins 40th party and enjoyed myself despite my anxiety going through the roof at the start.  So I guess that is a win!  Thank you for the invite and everyone who made me feel welcome.  I really should go to social events more.  It does take a lot out of me though so if I seem reserved at times I apologise.  It is nothing personal. Started off with good intentions not to drink which quickly went out of the window.  As my father-in-law would say, “I had a date with the Captain.”  Which basically means Captain Morgans Spiced Rum and Coke.  I cannot drink a lot of beer.  It bloats me too much.  Besides “Rum is the future” …

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