Start of some healing? I hope so.

Tomorrow I have my first session with a counsellor.  I am more than a little apprehensive about it but I know it will be good for me.  I just wish I knew what to expect.  It seems like a different form then what I have tried in the past I.  Even if it takes a similar form I am still nervous about opening up to someone new face to face again.  I know I open up here to pretty much anyone with internet access but it is a whole new thing face to face.  I’m also afraid of what kind of state I will be in after it.  The session is in the middle of the day so at least I can get myself back together a bit before bed but I do wonder how much it could break me.  Perhaps I am just being pessimistic?  I’ve read a few …

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Unexpected but welcome

Today was a good day for me. There I said it.  The first actual full good day I have had for as long as I can remember.  Of course I am talking mentally here.  Other things are bothering me but these are run-of-the-mill daily life things. Such as my car deciding to quit on me 3 days before it going to the garage etc. I admit it should have been looked at sooner but due to various things happening to me during that period I didn’t.  I won’t go over it but if you’d like some background please go here and come back. You’d think I’d more to write more but my mind is just empty of other thoughts right now. Oh yeah.  I played some Tetris 99 thinking “I remember being awesome at Tetris when I was younger!”  It turns out that was either in my head (likely) or the fact …

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