The day before

Well it is finally the day before Cleo gets her first treatment. To say I’m edgy about it would be an understatement! She was coughing quite a lot last night. Maybe it was the hot weather provoking it though? Either way I hope this treatment eases it for her at least. Must be horrible. We are giving her more food than usual to try and keep her weight up but she seems to be losing it quite quickly. We notice it more when we put her harness on. Feeling pretty tired this week too. It is not that I’m burning the candle at both ends, rather that I must have sprung a leak somewhere and all my energy is leaking out. That is the best way I can put it. All in all the weekend cannot come quickly enough. ¬†On top of that I really need to get a car. …

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Time passes slowly

Friday can’t come soon enough. Ever since the appointment for Cleo was confirmed we’ve been wishing the days to pass quickly. Some days she seems almost her self, hardly coughing at all and then other days she seems tired and withdrawn. Meanwhile some of the lumps appear to be getting bigger. I really hope this treatment helps her. Gives her comfort. My mind, being dark as it is, always goes straight to the negatives though and no matter how I try to convince myself of all the positive outcomes my mind is like “Nope!” Come to think of it, it is kind of weird to talk about my mind like a separate entity but that is exactly how it feels half the time. Perhaps it has been taken over by a member of the Q continuum. Meanwhile, crazy and evil people are continuing to terrorise us and disasters seem to …

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Updates and stuff

It has been a while since I posted. Quite frankly I just wasn’t in the right place to do it. I am still not the best but I need to push myself to post here whatever my mood. I guess that is the point right? Getting it out there so that maybe, just maybe it leaves my mind for a bit… Ever since finding out about Cleo and the whole car incident I’ve been in a kind of daze. Work, eat, sleep and repeat. We’ve recently had confirmation that Cleo’s chemotherapy treatment will be covered by our insurance which is great news and a huge relief. Her first appointment is a week Friday at the Vale Vets. It is a bit of a trek and without a car even more so. Luckily and thankfully my father in law has offered to take us so a big thanks to him. I …

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