Time passes slowly

Friday can’t come soon enough. Ever since the appointment for Cleo was confirmed we’ve been wishing the days to pass quickly. Some days she seems almost her self, hardly coughing at all and then other days she seems tired and withdrawn. Meanwhile some of the lumps appear to be getting bigger. I really hope this treatment helps her. Gives her comfort. My mind, being dark as it is, always goes straight to the negatives though and no matter how I try to convince myself of all the positive outcomes my mind is like “Nope!” Come to think of it, it is kind of weird to talk about my mind like a separate entity but that is exactly how it feels half the time. Perhaps it has been taken over by a member of the Q continuum. Meanwhile, crazy and evil people are continuing to terrorise us and disasters seem to …

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Updates and stuff

It has been a while since I posted. Quite frankly I just wasn’t in the right place to do it. I am still not the best but I need to push myself to post here whatever my mood. I guess that is the point right? Getting it out there so that maybe, just maybe it leaves my mind for a bit… Ever since finding out about Cleo and the whole car incident I’ve been in a kind of daze. Work, eat, sleep and repeat. We’ve recently had confirmation that Cleo’s chemotherapy treatment will be covered by our insurance which is great news and a huge relief. Her first appointment is a week Friday at the Vale Vets. It is a bit of a trek and without a car even more so. Luckily and thankfully my father in law has offered to take us so a big thanks to him. I …

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The day I wish never happened

Last Tuesday I awoke to the sound of my dog Cleo coughing repeatedly. After checking on her we discovered lumps on her throat. Fearing the worst we made an urgent appointment at the vets later that day. The vet examined her and found another lump near the top of her hind left leg. At this point our minds were going a thousand miles an hour. Then the words “it looks like possible lymphoma.” We felt the world swallow us up. There is no other way to describe it. They wanted her in the next morning for a biopsy. We went home in a daze. The next morning we dropped her off at 8.30 not knowing what to expect. We also had to drop off the car for its MOT so when we did that at 9 we waited in Tesco. An hour or so later the a phone call arrives …

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