The battle continues

I don’t know where to start.  My thoughts are all over the place so this post may be kind of rambling and possibly bordering on incoherent so I apologise for that. Since the last time I posted I’ve been trying to get my head straight and basically taking each day at a time.  I know that it sounds cliché but that is how it has been.  Sometimes it has even devolved into hour by hour.  I managed to make it through the week though.  This is in no small part to the people have around me supporting me.  I don’t know what I would do without them.  You guys know who you are and you are all awesome. This weekend has been pretty chilled out too.  Although I’ve been busy sorting some things out in the house it has been a good weekend.  Productive and relaxing.  Sounds counter-intuitive I know …

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The pit

It has been a while since I posted and based on my last post you’d be right in getting the impression I was getting better. At the time I thought I was then, not long after I had the biggest bout I have ever had. I had to take some time off work and basically became a hermit.  All the advice was to get out and do things but all I could see around me was darkness. I know that sounds dramatic but it is the only way I can even begin to describe how I was feeling. My sleep patterns were pretty much backwards when I could sleep at all and every waking moment felt like, well, like hell. I couldn’t see a way out. I still don’t know what triggered it and I suppose I may never know. Something just flipped in my head and I just didn’t …

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Tough but not that tough

This week was tough for me but not as tough as it has been if that makes sense. I am still feeling tired every night when I finish work and even dropped off early last night!  I am managing to get more sleep but still averaging around 4-6 hours a night.  I did have one 8 hour sleep but I felt worse after it.  Don’t know how that works! It’s been tough for Andrew and Sheryl too with their dog Tipsy being ill.  I didn’t write about it before as it was something that is private for them but now I think it is OK.  She’s gotten much better and managing to walk and run around now which is awesome news. Walking the dog every day is helping me loads too.  At least it appears to be.  He still has a lot to learn about pulling too much though!  Also, …

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