Danger: Darkness ahead

I’d like to start this post off with a trigger warning.  A lot of this post is quite sensitive and frankly dark (even for me.)  However, I feel I have to write it.  It is time I stopped hiding it and I apologise if this post upsets anyone.  This was not my intention.  If you think it might then please stop reading now. Last night was a rough night.  As you may know, I have not been sleeping well for what seems like an age now.  When I do get to sleep it is rarely restful and definitely not calm.  Although the nightmares have stopped for the last day or two I still cannot get some decent rest.  I woke up really early and for the first time I actually had to write a list of reasons to go on.  I won’t go into details but the balance was tipped …

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Tough climbs

It’s been a hard week so far.  Really struggled to keep my mood up and focussed.  Even motivating myself to write this has been hard. My eye is on the road to recovery but it does look worse than Saturday.  I won’t post an image of it this time though.  Surely once is enough for you guys!  Meanwhile, the nightmares and disturbed sleep continues. In more positive news, I’ve managed to get a good setup of old and new consoles.  Currently the order goes NES (classic)->SNES->N64->Xbox ONE.  We still have a PS1, 2 and 3 also.  Though the PS3 is mostly used for Blu-ray duties downstairs these days.  Not sure if I’ve already posted about the retro-modern fusion but if so it’s worth posting about it again!  The N64 collection has increased slightly now as Mario Kart 64 and Mario 64 have finally arrived too so there will be many …

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Eventful weekend

Well, my weekend got off to a great start! Woke up Saturday morning with a black eye forming.  I’ve been having nightmares for a while but it has never resulted in me physically hurting myself.  I just wish I could remember what the dreams were about.  All I remember is the sense of dread for a while after waking. This also coincided with a mental health assessment appointment I had finally managed to get for 12 that day too.  So who knows what she was thinking looking at that as I sat down!  The appointment went well though even though I ended up feeling mentally exhausted afterwards.  I always get that way when I talk about things.  Especially to strangers.  It did feel like a kind of release though.  I’ve been booked in for a week Monday for a follow-up and this may turn into weekly or fortnightly appointments. The …

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