More downs than ups

Since my last, relatively positive post (at least positive for me) I have been on a mostly downward path.  For a while I managed to, mostly at least, stay level. A few weeks ago, maybe longer I don’t know, I’ve been constantly looking on the negative side of everything. My moods have been erratic.  This has even spilled over into places it never has before.  I can normally contain it and control it but lately I haven’t been able to. This past week has been as bad as I can remember. This is despite positive things happening. That sounds weird right? I know you are probably thinking “How can he be overwhelmingly depressed when good things are happening?”  I wish I knew. I’ve joined a few support groups to try to open up more and maybe get another perspective on my illness (I’ve just realised this is the first time …

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Climbing back up

Sometimes my mind makes me experience more downs than ups. This was the case a few weeks ago and although I am feeling like I am coming out of it now, I still have the thoughts lurking in the back of mind during quiet times. However, I’m taking steps to break the cycle. Not big steps but small manageable ones. This way it is more likely to stick. At least that is what I am thinking. Family and friends have been amazing and I have received a lot of support at work which I am grateful for also. Not much else comes to my mind right now so here is to the future, a brighter future. A future with a path I have chosen.