Today I finally managed to overcome my frustration, helplessness and fear when they came upon me today. Usually, I would pretty much crumble and just back off, but today I didn’t. Well, not completely. Admittedly I had help from some other people, and I had to vent a bit, but venting is healthy when you are frustrated right? At least I think it is better than keeping it inside. I know to most people what I just wrote doesn’t seem like a big deal, but to me it is enormous. I do feel drained after today though like I do every day. The accompanying feelings of worthlessness and sadness are less. They are not gone. Just less.
Perhaps I can upgrade that percentage of progress? What do you suggest? 85%? I’d say I’m ranging from around 45% to 85% which is still too big a swing, but at least the highs are higher.
With this week being Mental Health Awareness week it is quite fitting too. I want to reiterate that if anyone out there reading this feels alone or needs to talk, please reach out to me. I will be here to listen. I am not a replacement for professional and urgent help. I am just someone who understands what it is like to feel alone even when in a room full of people. Here are some links for help and advice:
- Samaritans – Call 116 123 or email firstname.lastname@example.org
- Rethink Mental Illness – 0300 5000 927
- Mind – 0300 123 3393 or email email@example.com
You can also turn to someone you trust. I did this (reluctantly), and it helped me immensely. Speak with your GP for longer-term help and to begin healing.
I am conscious all of these sources are UK based so if you are not from the UK, please use your local resources. If you need help finding one contact me or maybe the resources above can help point you in the right direction.