Can I snap out of this?

These last few months, I have been thinking about deleting this blog.  It has been a struggle finding my way from day to day, so sitting down to write something has been all but unthinkable to me.  At the same time, though, even as I start to write this, I feel a strange sort of release, which reminds me why I created this blog in the first place. If you have been reading entries from this blog before, you know the pattern of my mind by now.  I go through long periods of seeming inactivity.  I never intend for it to happen, and sometimes weeks can go by before I even realise I’ve slipped into these periods.  I refer to them as my “low power mode”.  This state has persisted for far too long, and this time I am not sure I can even pull out of it.  Well, that …

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Exhaustion and hope

It is only Tuesday night, and already I feel burned out.  Not sure why.  Nothing really has changed in my routine except for maybe my sleep patterns not being too great.  It is not tiredness, I feel.  It is more of mental exhaustion.  I am off work on Friday, and at this point, I cannot wait.  It will be nice to recharge for an extra day.  Vicks birthday is on Saturday, and normally we would be away.  Most likely at her favourite place – the Harry Potter Studio Tour in Watford but not this year.  Let’s hope that next year is a better year for us and all.  Let us hope that the vaccines that are currently in trials work well and safely so we can all start to take the fight to the virus.  Hopefully, in time, we can eradicate it. However, reading the news today about antibodies not …

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Drifting

Yet again, it has been a long time since I last posted.  I think the best way to describe what I have been doing is to say I’ve been drifting.  This lockdown is really starting to make each day seem like groundhog day.  Sometimes it seems that the weeks disappear in the blink of an eye.  We’ve been in this new “Firebreak” lockdown here in Wales for a couple of days now and to be honest, it hasn’t affected me much.  I was already feeling restricted before this came into force.  I have seen a few posts bemoaning the stringent rules that have been put in, such as stopping people buying non-essential goods.  I believe this is necessary.  My reason for saying that is that, during the first lockdown in March, this was also the guidance and I believe some ignored it.  I have seen evidence of people ignoring the …

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