The struggle continues

It has been another tough week. I am trying my hardest to hold myself together while my mind is trying its hardest to pull me apart. I usually make it to Friday with a small sense of achievement at least but not this week.  I feel drained.  Physically and mentally. On top of that, something weird is going on with my eye.  Came out of nowhere and has gotten steadily worse over the last few days.  So an early night was in order holding onto the vague hope I’d feel better in the morning.  I don’t feel much better, though, but at least I am up early!  It doesn’t look as bad as yesterday, but maybe I am just used to it now.  It does hurt to the touch though.  On the plus side, my shoulder is a lot better, so there is that! We’re supposed to be going to the Big Cheese today, …

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Calm before the storm?

I feel strangely odd today.  I feel calm, but I can also feel frustration bubbling under the surface.  The bubbling seems to be getting louder.  If it keeps up at this pace, it will be at a boiling point pretty soon.  I do feel like I am making progress with expressing my frustrations though which may not be going down well with some.  However, all of the things I have let out recently have been simmering for quite some time.  It’s odd that with this venting of my frustrations the bubbling is not subsiding.  Maybe I underestimated just how much I needed to vent?  I do not want to let it all out and once but perhaps I should open the valve a bit more?  It certainly feels liberating to let so many things out finally. Why is it despite getting a few things in order and generally feeling like …

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