The cycle continues

This week feels like it has been going on forever. Yes I know Lee Evans would have a field day with that sentence but that is the way it is. I really need to find a way to pick up my energy levels. I feel tired as soon as my feet touches the doorstep at the end of the day. At least the weekend is fast approaching. It has been really busy at work. Who I am I kidding? It is always busy but this week has been even more so. If I couple that with other recent events and worries I guess that explains my tiredness. Who knows? Maybe my brain will give me the day off and stopping kicking into high gear every night? It seems no matter how tired I get my mind starts turning over a 100 miles an hour as soon as my head hits …

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Long night

The last few days have been a roller-coaster.  Last night though the dark clouds were forming worse then they have for a long time and as usual my sleep suffered. It is funny this morning though, looking back on it, as what I was worrying about is really just small things.  Some of which I cannot even remember properly although at the time it was the end of the world inside my head.  Still the dark thoughts kept coming. I’ve decided I need to get myself into more personal projects.  I’m dwelling on things too much when at home and I think if I kept myself busy and engaged as well as stepping up the exercise it should help. The problem is though, the more I feel like this the less likely I am to do these things which in turn would help me to get out of it.   …

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Holiday over

I am at the end of a 10 day break from work and as usual I do not know how it went by so fast!  I went out last night to my cousins 40th party and enjoyed myself despite my anxiety going through the roof at the start.  So I guess that is a win!  Thank you for the invite and everyone who made me feel welcome.  I really should go to social events more.  It does take a lot out of me though so if I seem reserved at times I apologise.  It is nothing personal. Started off with good intentions not to drink which quickly went out of the window.  As my father-in-law would say, “I had a date with the Captain.”  Which basically means Captain Morgans Spiced Rum and Coke.  I cannot drink a lot of beer.  It bloats me too much.  Besides “Rum is the future” …

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