anxiety

Minor victory

I think I had a small victory today.  A tiny victory in the eyes of most people I bet, but for me it was great.  I addressed a situation head-on.  Instead of just accepting the blame for a change or minimising my frustration at a situation, I addressed it, and you know what?  It didn’t turn out as bad as I thought.  Even though it took me a lot longer than I would like to work up the nerve to do it, I did it.  Looking back on it now, it was such a small thing, but my mind (playing through every bad scenario it could) made me get more than a little stressed. So yeah, minor victory and some of you may well be thinking “yup, what was the big deal?”  If you believe that then I am happy for you.  You are in a place I eventually want …

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Reflections

Last Thursday was my final counselling session out of the 6 I was allotted.  At first, it was hard to say if it was helping at all.  During the final session though we reflected on everything that had been said, and she helped me realise that I have made progress.  Nowhere near where I want to or even need to be, but it is progress at least.  I am sorry that it is over now, though.  I wish I had more sessions, but it is not to be.  I cannot afford to go private, so I will have to go back to the NHS and back on the waiting list again.  The wait will probably be long, and when I finally get some sessions, it will be with another new therapist.  It will feel like I am starting over.  Again. I’m not sure if that thought was playing on my …

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