Exhaustion and hope

It is only Tuesday night, and already I feel burned out.  Not sure why.  Nothing really has changed in my routine except for maybe my sleep patterns not being too great.  It is not tiredness, I feel.  It is more of mental exhaustion.  I am off work on Friday, and at this point, I cannot wait.  It will be nice to recharge for an extra day.  Vicks birthday is on Saturday, and normally we would be away.  Most likely at her favourite place – the Harry Potter Studio Tour in Watford but not this year.  Let’s hope that next year is a better year for us and all.  Let us hope that the vaccines that are currently in trials work well and safely so we can all start to take the fight to the virus.  Hopefully, in time, we can eradicate it. However, reading the news today about antibodies not …

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Drifting

Yet again, it has been a long time since I last posted.  I think the best way to describe what I have been doing is to say I’ve been drifting.  This lockdown is really starting to make each day seem like groundhog day.  Sometimes it seems that the weeks disappear in the blink of an eye.  We’ve been in this new “Firebreak” lockdown here in Wales for a couple of days now and to be honest, it hasn’t affected me much.  I was already feeling restricted before this came into force.  I have seen a few posts bemoaning the stringent rules that have been put in, such as stopping people buying non-essential goods.  I believe this is necessary.  My reason for saying that is that, during the first lockdown in March, this was also the guidance and I believe some ignored it.  I have seen evidence of people ignoring the …

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Obligations

I have a feeling this post is going to go through many, many edits.  Even then, I do not think I will manage to get my point across without offending some people.  However, in the spirit of my reboot, I will not hold anything back.  I’m open to discussion about this and indeed anything even if I haven’t posted about it. The debate is healthy as long as it is not hostile. With that out of the way, let’s begin.  I lay awake a night or two ago thinking about the way we sometimes feel obligations to say or act a certain way.  A lot of the time, these feelings come from a good place, but this post is not about those feelings.  This post is about feeling obligated to do something when you don’t feel like doing something.  The kind of things that if you didn’t do, you’d feel …

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