Tough climbs

It’s been a hard week so far.  Really struggled to keep my mood up and focussed.  Even motivating myself to write this has been hard. My eye is on the road to recovery but it does look worse than Saturday.  I won’t post an image of it this time though.  Surely once is enough for you guys!  Meanwhile, the nightmares and disturbed sleep continues. In more positive news, I’ve managed to get a good setup of old and new consoles.  Currently the order goes NES (classic)->SNES->N64->Xbox ONE.  We still have a PS1, 2 and 3 also.  Though the PS3 is mostly used for Blu-ray duties downstairs these days.  Not sure if I’ve already posted about the retro-modern fusion but if so it’s worth posting about it again!  The N64 collection has increased slightly now as Mario Kart 64 and Mario 64 have finally arrived too so there will be many …

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Eventful weekend

Well, my weekend got off to a great start! Woke up Saturday morning with a black eye forming.  I’ve been having nightmares for a while but it has never resulted in me physically hurting myself.  I just wish I could remember what the dreams were about.  All I remember is the sense of dread for a while after waking. This also coincided with a mental health assessment appointment I had finally managed to get for 12 that day too.  So who knows what she was thinking looking at that as I sat down!  The appointment went well though even though I ended up feeling mentally exhausted afterwards.  I always get that way when I talk about things.  Especially to strangers.  It did feel like a kind of release though.  I’ve been booked in for a week Monday for a follow-up and this may turn into weekly or fortnightly appointments. The …

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New roads to travel and old ones revisited

Enrolled in an NHS study last night so now I’m officially getting tracked!  Seriously though, the stuff they do sounds interesting and I am glad to participate.  One of the apps seems to be draining my battery a little faster than I would like though.  I’ll have to mention it at our next catch up.  Right now I am not feeling too bad.  I feel like I am on the lower end of the depression cycle right now.  Good news for me, not so much for the study I guess. The study is for two years I think (my memory needs some work) so no doubt there will be many ups and downs during that period.  Here’s to hoping I can understand this a bit more and take control of it more effectively.  I’d settle for that. In other news, I’ve been reliving my days playing GoldenEye on the N64.  …

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