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Cleaning the mind (and home)

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After another long lull in activity here, I finally have my mind in a place where I can write again.  Maybe one day my “mind outages” will be less frequent.  Essentially what happens is I go into a sort of preservation mode whereby I dedicate all my energy to work and absolutely necessary tasks to keep myself afloat.  Everything else gets sort of paused.  It is not ideal and I do not like it but this is the only way I can weather the storms that occur in my mind. Anyway, around the middle of last week (or was it the week before?) I decided that, although working from home is so much better for me, there was not enough separation between the home office and home life.  To that end, I decided to totally redo my work and living spaces to truly separate them.  It sounded easy on paper …

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Back to blogging

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I haven’t posted since November!  Looking at the date, I am barely able to comprehend the time that has gone by!  I know the old saying is time flies when you are having fun, but in this case, there hasn’t been a lot of fun going on.  Everything seems to have passed me by in a blur, and I can barely remember the months.  Due to the nature of how my illness works, I won’t be saying that I won’t leave it this long again.  If I had that level of control over my illness, then I guess I would no longer be ill.  At least not affected to the extent it affects me now.  Don’t get me wrong; I am doing better.  What I mean by that is that I am coping better.  I have found a sort of “groove of wellness” for want of a better phrase.  However, …

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The day before

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This weekend has been slow and normally that would be a good thing! I can already hear you shouting at the screen “Don’t wish the weekend away!” The reason for this is that tomorrow we find out if the Cancer is back for Cleo which, try as I might, I think it is. Another lump has started to appear next to the one we found. There is not much else I can say about that except that we are not going to give up. Even though the odds are now more stacked against us. If it comes to the fact we are just pumping drugs into her and it is negatively affecting her quality of life we will stop but to me, a 50% chance is worth it. We just don’t know how soon we can tell if it works. Hopefully the vet will fill us in on our options …

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