Eventful weekend

Well, my weekend got off to a great start! Woke up Saturday morning with a black eye forming.  I’ve been having nightmares for a while but it has never resulted in me physically hurting myself.  I just wish I could remember what the dreams were about.  All I remember is the sense of dread for a while after waking. This also coincided with a mental health assessment appointment I had finally managed to get for 12 that day too.  So who knows what she was thinking looking at that as I sat down!  The appointment went well though even though I ended up feeling mentally exhausted afterwards.  I always get that way when I talk about things.  Especially to strangers.  It did feel like a kind of release though.  I’ve been booked in for a week Monday for a follow-up and this may turn into weekly or fortnightly appointments. The …

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The pit

It has been a while since I posted and based on my last post you’d be right in getting the impression I was getting better. At the time I thought I was then, not long after I had the biggest bout I have ever had. I had to take some time off work and basically became a hermit.  All the advice was to get out and do things but all I could see around me was darkness. I know that sounds dramatic but it is the only way I can even begin to describe how I was feeling. My sleep patterns were pretty much backwards when I could sleep at all and every waking moment felt like, well, like hell. I couldn’t see a way out. I still don’t know what triggered it and I suppose I may never know. Something just flipped in my head and I just didn’t …

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Back on the virtual saddle

One good thing to come out of my virtual immobilisation – getting back into Warcraft.  It has been so long that everything feels (mostly) fresh.  I forgot how much I loved the story of it all.  I think Blizzard have stepped it up a notch with this expansion.  The intro quests alone feel epic.  It is good to be back. My chest is still hurting.  Sometimes I forget about it then get up too quick and boom there it is!  Having said that the weekend seems to have gone slowly for once.  Not that I am complaining but it does feel kind of eerie.  Perhaps it is not sleeping that heavily (except for when I’ve had some pain killers.)  I’ve always been a night owl so around 5 hours max is usually good for me.  Unless it is the weekend and sometimes I make up for it!  Not much chance …

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