Battery is getting low

I think I am starting to feel a dip in my mood.  Over the last few days I’m having to try harder to motivate myself to get up and move.  Not sure what is triggering it this time.  Maybe I am just getting fatigued more easily these days?  I am trying my best not to let it get to me though but it is hard.  I feel like I am running at about 30% all the time.  Always looking to get to the next mile post or the next charging point so to speak.  Not enjoying the journey just enduring it.  That is not how I want to be and for the most part, since I’ve been back, that is not how I have been.  I really hope I’m not slipping again. Recently I began to set up a streaming platform upstairs.  However, my internet upload is currently letting me …

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Drained

So last night was the second night of not sleeping properly. I feel tired during the day but as soon as my head hits the pillow, bam my brain goes into overdrive.  It is not even anything in particular.  Could be ideas to fix bugs in software at work I’d recently been working on, plans to do other things in my spare time or just random wandering through my past.  I hope I can break this cycle soon.  I am finding it really hard right now to find the energy. I’m still getting headaches too.  Not as bad as they have been but still there nonetheless.  I’m waiting for new glasses in about a week so hopefully that will help although my prescription is not that different albeit from 5 years ago at the last test.  Yes, I know, I should do it yearly.  I have no excuse.  I need …

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Word of the day: Pain

Ended the week in a world of pain.  Pain in my chest woke me up around 2am yesterday.  I managed with it until 7ish but by then I had to go and get it checked out.  Yeah, I probably should have gone sooner.  Turns out I have a small crack on a rib and inflammation of the junctions where the upper ribs join with the cartilage.   I have a vague idea how I did it but it was weeks ago.  I fell and bumped my chest but the pain went away.  Perhaps something recently flared it up?  Who knows?  Perhaps I am just getting old before my time. I’m still in pain today.  I think I am OK then I stretch for something and my body reminds me I’m not.  Surely I am due a break soon!  I won’t be attempting anything strenuous this weekend.  So gaming and chilling is …

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