Sunday thoughts

Although I have not made as much progress as I would like, I have made some progress and that has to be a good thing.  For me, it is a hugely good thing considering my stagnation over recent weeks (months?) The biggest thing I have made progress on is starting to refresh my skills and starting to learn new things.  Such as: Learning Python Learning R Refreshing my Android app development skills I must admit, so far Python is more than a little weird for me but it is very interesting.  I’ll be using R for work or at least I plan to.  The are some things I may need it for to link to APIs in PowerBI reports.  As for Android dev skills, this is purely for private development.  I have folders of ideas for apps and some that are even halfway there but have sat them on the …

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Minor victory

I think I had a small victory today.  A tiny victory in the eyes of most people I bet, but for me it was great.  I addressed a situation head-on.  Instead of just accepting the blame for a change or minimising my frustration at a situation, I addressed it, and you know what?  It didn’t turn out as bad as I thought.  Even though it took me a lot longer than I would like to work up the nerve to do it, I did it.  Looking back on it now, it was such a small thing, but my mind (playing through every bad scenario it could) made me get more than a little stressed. So yeah, minor victory and some of you may well be thinking “yup, what was the big deal?”  If you believe that then I am happy for you.  You are in a place I eventually want …

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More progress and pain

Making it to this weekend has been more comfortable for me than it has been for a long time, and that has to be a plus.  I went to a second counselling session on Thursday, and although I talked a lot, it did seem to go over the same ground.  I know it is only early days, but I don’t know if it is helping.  I guess it helps me get things off my chest, which is always good.  I let myself vent a little recently, and it levelled me out pretty good, so maybe I’m just undervaluing it.  I’d love to hear from anyone who has gone through counselling with any stories, experiences or insights they’d like to share.  I’m new to this and don’t know what to expect.  I guess everyone’s take away from it is different though. We walked Tyrion quite a bit longer this week than …

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