ramblings

Why is my mind like this?

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Why is it so hard for me to get back into a groove of at least writing here?  I sometimes lay awake at night thinking about things I’d like to write and think to myself “that it is a great idea” but then the morning rolls around and …… nothing.  Maybe I should just get up and write in the night?  That seems to be when my mind is a peak creativity.  I’ve always been more of a night person anyway.  Perhaps it is the quiet?  Although that is an enemy of mine too. Anyway, today I plan to get stuck into a project that I started a while back.  The plan is to work on it for a few hours and see where it takes me creatively.  The biggest challenge for me, is that after I have fulfilled all my obligations for the day, I have no mental energy …

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Acceptance

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It has been a couple of days of either sleeping too much (at the wrong times) or not enough.  It seems that my brain just wants me to sleep during the day and stay awake at night.  This is fine when I am on annual leave but, as you can imagine, sucks when I am not.  I need to find a way to correct this.  Preferably without the use of medication.  I tried switching up the times I take my existing antidepressants but that did not help.  Well, that is not true, it did help for a little while but then my brain seems to have reverted to type.  Maybe micro naps are the future for me?  This might be just how I have to exist at this point.  I hope I can find a pattern of sleep that works and doesn’t leave me randomly tired.  It is probably too …

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