Headspace

So far this week has been a productive one mentally at least.  I am still yet to fully get back into dieting but I’m not going to let that get me down.  Now, this may be controversial to some people but I am glad the weather has cooled down.  I don’t want it to be cold but I could barely function in the heat last week.  Perhaps I am more suited to living in cooler climbs? This weekend I plan to push into Android dev and at least have some mock-up functions working that I have been meaning to get into.  For some reason, Bitdefender is detecting parts of Android studio as malware.  Slightly annoying as after several scans there is no threat.  Better to be safe than sorry I guess. The most positive thing for me this week has been my ability to keep a level headspace.  I have …

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Can I snap out of this?

These last few months, I have been thinking about deleting this blog.  It has been a struggle finding my way from day to day, so sitting down to write something has been all but unthinkable to me.  At the same time, though, even as I start to write this, I feel a strange sort of release, which reminds me why I created this blog in the first place. If you have been reading entries from this blog before, you know the pattern of my mind by now.  I go through long periods of seeming inactivity.  I never intend for it to happen, and sometimes weeks can go by before I even realise I’ve slipped into these periods.  I refer to them as my “low power mode”.  This state has persisted for far too long, and this time I am not sure I can even pull out of it.  Well, that …

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Mental seesaw

I think I’ve reached a balance point mentally.  Maybe that is wrong?  Perhaps a better way of explaining my current mental state is, although it tips wildly in either direction from anger/sadness to happiness/contentment, is that it returns to the centre quickly.   That is good news.  However, I am finding that my mind wanders quite a lot when I find myself with a little time to myself.  I can’t seem to focus on much or stick with things easily during my free time.  I’m sure everyone has those moments of clarity when they are standing in the shower whereby you have a million and one thoughts flying around in your head, and you know what you want to do with yourself.  When I get out though and cool down from the shower, my motivation and concentration dip to pretty much zero.  I read somewhere that your mind flows more freely …

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