Mental seesaw

I think I’ve reached a balance point mentally.  Maybe that is wrong?  Perhaps a better way of explaining my current mental state is, although it tips wildly in either direction from anger/sadness to happiness/contentment, is that it returns to the centre quickly.   That is good news.  However, I am finding that my mind wanders quite a lot when I find myself with a little time to myself.  I can’t seem to focus on much or stick with things easily during my free time.  I’m sure everyone has those moments of clarity when they are standing in the shower whereby you have a million and one thoughts flying around in your head, and you know what you want to do with yourself.  When I get out though and cool down from the shower, my motivation and concentration dip to pretty much zero.  I read somewhere that your mind flows more freely …

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Terminal Velocity

I’m just going to dump some stuff out onto this new post I’ve been staring at for a while. I feel like I’ve lost my direction in life.  Correction, I don’t know if I have ever really had a direction.  Does anyone else out there feel like they are just drifting from one day to the next with no other goal but to exist?  Some days existing is all I can manage.  Most days lately, at least using my dark perception of myself, I feel like I am overlooked, irrelevant and surplus to requirements.  I could go on by why bother?  I am sure you get the picture by now. If there is a rock bottom, I don’t think I’ve hit it quite yet although some days it feels that way.  All I know for sure is that the way to the bottom seems very, very deep.  I believe I …

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