Mind dumping

I started writing this Monday night but I just couldn’t finish it for some reason.  I have had a dark couple of nights mentally so this post might end up a bit of a mash-up.  Anyway, here goes… The weekend didn’t go according to plan.  The weather was terrible so stargazing was off the table.  We’ll probably go further afield next weekend which will hopefully bring us better luck.  It is either that or just driving until we can find some clear sky!  I guess patience is a virtue when it comes to the perfect conditions we are looking for. We were also supposed to have a cooker delivered and installed on Monday.  However, it turned out they could not install it where we want it despite being reassured it would be fine by the sales staff!  We’ve received a full refund and have taken our business elsewhere.  Hopefully this …

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Reflection and weekend plans

It’s Friday evening and I’ve made it through another week.  I’m looking forward to unwinding over the weekend and starting fresh.  I have the sense that I am slowly starting to win the morning blues battle. Losing more than I am winning but at least there are some wins appearing. Andrew and I are meant to go stargazing this weekend but at the moment the weather is not looking promising.  We have a “go bag” ready though so we can leave at a few moments notice! Sounds fairly drastic when I write that down but it looks like we may only get a window of a couple of hours this weekend at most.  If it doesn’t work out this weekend we will probably look to go further afield. Tyrion will be going out for his first walk tomorrow. Vick will probably say it is not a moment too soon! He …

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Keeping the beast at bay

This morning started off badly for me mentally. For some reason an ominous feeling came over me which I couldn’t shake. I racked my brain trying to think of a reason. Maybe I forgot to do something? As the day progressed though nothing bad happened. In fact it was a good day mostly in the office. It just goes to show that depression is an evil beast seemingly striking with no reason.  I’ve been having a good week too. I won’t quite write off the week goal based on this incident but it definitely took a blow. I’m still having energy level problems and I’ve been planning on taking more exercise in the evenings and weekends.  Hopefully after a few weeks of that I’ll start to feel the benefits.  Also in a couple of weeks, Tyrion will have had his last injection and I can take him for walks too.  …

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