Start of some healing? I hope so.

Tomorrow I have my first session with a counsellor.  I am more than a little apprehensive about it but I know it will be good for me.  I just wish I knew what to expect.  It seems like a different form then what I have tried in the past I.  Even if it takes a similar form I am still nervous about opening up to someone new face to face again.  I know I open up here to pretty much anyone with internet access but it is a whole new thing face to face.  I’m also afraid of what kind of state I will be in after it.  The session is in the middle of the day so at least I can get myself back together a bit before bed but I do wonder how much it could break me.  Perhaps I am just being pessimistic?  I’ve read a few …

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Battery is getting low

I think I am starting to feel a dip in my mood.  Over the last few days I’m having to try harder to motivate myself to get up and move.  Not sure what is triggering it this time.  Maybe I am just getting fatigued more easily these days?  I am trying my best not to let it get to me though but it is hard.  I feel like I am running at about 30% all the time.  Always looking to get to the next mile post or the next charging point so to speak.  Not enjoying the journey just enduring it.  That is not how I want to be and for the most part, since I’ve been back, that is not how I have been.  I really hope I’m not slipping again. Recently I began to set up a streaming platform upstairs.  However, my internet upload is currently letting me …

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