Reflection and weekend plans

It’s Friday evening and I’ve made it through another week.  I’m looking forward to unwinding over the weekend and starting fresh.  I have the sense that I am slowly starting to win the morning blues battle. Losing more than I am winning but at least there are some wins appearing. Andrew and I are meant to go stargazing this weekend but at the moment the weather is not looking promising.  We have a “go bag” ready though so we can leave at a few moments notice! Sounds fairly drastic when I write that down but it looks like we may only get a window of a couple of hours this weekend at most.  If it doesn’t work out this weekend we will probably look to go further afield. Tyrion will be going out for his first walk tomorrow. Vick will probably say it is not a moment too soon! He …

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The beast broke through

Last Monday the beast broke through once again. I almost made it to a week though. Again, I broke down at my desk and had to leave. I went back to the doctors again and after a chat he doubled my dose and suggested I lose weight and get more exercise. It is hard to get more exercise as I feel so low all the time but I will push myself hard and make the effort. This weekend will be the first time I can walk Tyrion too so that will help me. As for losing weight, maybe when I start exercising more I will feel more motivated to stick to a plan.  Comfort eating is my weakness so when my mood improves so should my diet (in theory!) Since the new dose however, I am feeling more tired than usual. I have only doubled it since Thursday last week so perhaps …

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3rd day in

Well I’m into the third day off and my mind is starting to unwind fully. Great couple of days just chilling and generally not doing much. Just what the doctor ordered. Vick and I went to spend some time with Andrew and Sheryl in the hot tub.  It eased her pain quite a bit so thank you very much both!  I also went out stargazing with Andrew and luckily it was a really clear night.  We got to see the moon in a lot of detail and a planet which we couldn’t identify due to equipment issues.  It was an amazing experience and we are looking to do it again someplace higher up when the full hits. Today I will be more productive. There are a number of things I need to get done and some jobs I’ve been putting off.  Time to get on the case.