Nothing ventured, nothing gained

On Sunday I decided to change the time I take my medication to an hour or so before bed.  The hope is that it will help me to sleep and stave off the drained feeling I have for the first part of everyday.  It has only been one day but this morning I did feel fresher.  This is by no means conclusive proof by any stretch of the imagination but maybe, just maybe, I’m on to something.  Then again it could be that I am only in work for two days this week so my mood is generally lifted?  A break is on the cards for sure.  It always sounds like I am saying that.  Hopefully this break will sort me out and I can put everything out of my mind that needs to get out. I still haven’t started on the redecorating of upstairs properly either.  I’ll push through …

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Reflection and weekend plans

It’s Friday evening and I’ve made it through another week.  I’m looking forward to unwinding over the weekend and starting fresh.  I have the sense that I am slowly starting to win the morning blues battle. Losing more than I am winning but at least there are some wins appearing. Andrew and I are meant to go stargazing this weekend but at the moment the weather is not looking promising.  We have a “go bag” ready though so we can leave at a few moments notice! Sounds fairly drastic when I write that down but it looks like we may only get a window of a couple of hours this weekend at most.  If it doesn’t work out this weekend we will probably look to go further afield. Tyrion will be going out for his first walk tomorrow. Vick will probably say it is not a moment too soon! He …

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The beast broke through

Last Monday the beast broke through once again. I almost made it to a week though. Again, I broke down at my desk and had to leave. I went back to the doctors again and after a chat he doubled my dose and suggested I lose weight and get more exercise. It is hard to get more exercise as I feel so low all the time but I will push myself hard and make the effort. This weekend will be the first time I can walk Tyrion too so that will help me. As for losing weight, maybe when I start exercising more I will feel more motivated to stick to a plan.  Comfort eating is my weakness so when my mood improves so should my diet (in theory!) Since the new dose however, I am feeling more tired than usual. I have only doubled it since Thursday last week so perhaps …

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