Tiredness returns

Last night was a waking nightmare for me.  I think I saw almost every hour of the clock.  I felt shattered when I went into the office this morning and wasn’t sure I could make it through.  A couple of cups of tea later, some minor bug fixes and new developments completed though and I was sailing.  Around half 4 I started to flag again but considering the lack of sleep and the random pains I don’t think that is too bad.  I spent the last half hour updating notes, workflows and tickets. I’m glad to be home though, I don’t think I’ll be doing much tonight.  Maybe some games.  I’m thinking of starting to take some vitamins also.  Might perk me up a bit.  I’m pretty sure I’m lacking in some of them.  Any ideas on what is best to try or should I just go for those one …

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Reflection and weekend plans

It’s Friday evening and I’ve made it through another week.  I’m looking forward to unwinding over the weekend and starting fresh.  I have the sense that I am slowly starting to win the morning blues battle. Losing more than I am winning but at least there are some wins appearing. Andrew and I are meant to go stargazing this weekend but at the moment the weather is not looking promising.  We have a “go bag” ready though so we can leave at a few moments notice! Sounds fairly drastic when I write that down but it looks like we may only get a window of a couple of hours this weekend at most.  If it doesn’t work out this weekend we will probably look to go further afield. Tyrion will be going out for his first walk tomorrow. Vick will probably say it is not a moment too soon! He …

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The beast broke through

Last Monday the beast broke through once again. I almost made it to a week though. Again, I broke down at my desk and had to leave. I went back to the doctors again and after a chat he doubled my dose and suggested I lose weight and get more exercise. It is hard to get more exercise as I feel so low all the time but I will push myself hard and make the effort. This weekend will be the first time I can walk Tyrion too so that will help me. As for losing weight, maybe when I start exercising more I will feel more motivated to stick to a plan.  Comfort eating is my weakness so when my mood improves so should my diet (in theory!) Since the new dose however, I am feeling more tired than usual. I have only doubled it since Thursday last week so perhaps …

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