I don’t know where to start. My thoughts are all over the place so this post may be kind of rambling and possibly bordering on incoherent so I apologise for that.
Since the last time I posted I’ve been trying to get my head straight and basically taking each day at a time. I know that it sounds cliché but that is how it has been. Sometimes it has even devolved into hour by hour. I managed to make it through the week though. This is in no small part to the people have around me supporting me. I don’t know what I would do without them. You guys know who you are and you are all awesome.
This weekend has been pretty chilled out too. Although I’ve been busy sorting some things out in the house it has been a good weekend. Productive and relaxing. Sounds counter-intuitive I know but I can’t think of any other way to express it. Perhaps this dosage is playing a part too. I am feeling more balanced lately. I still have my moments but there is more distance between them so that’s good. However, I’ve been down this road before so I’m not letting my guard down. I’ve come to accept that this is just who I am and I will always be fighting the demons of my own mind.
The kick off the NHS study is tomorrow night so hopefully that’ll help. If not me then others down the line.