Last Monday the beast broke through once again. I almost made it to a week though. Again, I broke down at my desk and had to leave. I went back to the doctors again and after a chat he doubled my dose and suggested I lose weight and get more exercise. It is hard to get more exercise as I feel so low all the time but I will push myself hard and make the effort. This weekend will be the first time I can walk Tyrion too so that will help me. As for losing weight, maybe when I start exercising more I will feel more motivated to stick to a plan. Comfort eating is my weakness so when my mood improves so should my diet (in theory!) Since the new dose however, I am feeling more tired than usual. I have only doubled it since Thursday last week so perhaps I just need to give it some time.
In other news, I went out with friends from work both past and present on Friday. We had a blast and it did feel good to blow the cobwebs away. Andrew came too and got to meet everyone. We had a great time. Was really great to catch up with people who have left too and just generally share stories. Some of us ended up worse for wear (not naming any names) but I managed to escape with just a headache the next day. Think I got off lucky! I look forward to doing it again.
So as another Monday draws to a close, I feel I have made progress. Even if it is just small progress. I felt edgy coming in this morning but I pushed through it and came out the other side. I feel drained though.